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In 1989 I had found myself in a depressed and suicidal state after the break up of a relationship. I spent the next few years ‘bouncing along the bottom of life’ - getting through each day by putting on my ‘I’m okay’ mask. I even managed to convince myself occasionally that everything was okay, but deep down I felt I was slowly dying. I knew that something had to change in my life, but didn’t know where to even begin.
It was only through a series of ‘coincidences’ that I found myself in front of Brandon Bays, on a Journey Intensive weekend. To be honest, I didn’t feel comfortable with the Journey process and nearly walked out of the workshop on the first day. But something persuaded me to hang in there, to make it through the day. I didn’t know what that something was at that time and I certainly didn’t know that my life was about to take a dramatic turn for the better. It was a few weeks before I personally noticed any changes in me - I was a slow learner at that time!
My confidence and self esteem had increased in those few weeks. I found myself taking on things I would have never dared to attempt in the past. I was once again looking forward to life and even dared to believe that I could be happy. I no longer felt like a misfit and found myself making new friends again with ease - I was quickly losing my shyness. All these changes were so subtle at first that it didn’t even occur to me at first that the Journey could have caused them. However, on reflection I realised that all the changes had started to take place after that first weekend workshop.
At the time I was managing a retail pharmacy and began to get disillusioned with the way traditional medicine was failing to help so many of the customers where I worked. I began to look for other ways to help people.
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